Why do I struggle to find the words that will express my true and honest feelings?
The ones that hold some meaning,
Yet I digress into shit without much substance,
Self-deprecation in abundance.
Loosened the screws from the overthinking,
Nothing to lose but the weight I'm bearing.
Lost in a world of my own, I don't know where I'm going.
Left feeling empty and cold but yet I'm still here breathing.
Trying to find a way for me to open up and let you see through my distant eyes,
All the things that I hide.
I let my woes pent up inside,
No means to vent I realized,
To everyone and to myself,
I'm acting like somebody else.
And when it rains, it pours,
I should've said before.
I let this fester, tried to pretend that this was never on my mind.
Look into my eyes,
Show me what I hide.
When I can't let my feelings be known,
I let this sadness swallow me whole.
Watch the light fight the gloom,
Or the cold halt the bloom on the dreams that I thought would help me grow.